Obey

As I was taking a shower this morning. 5ish. I couldn't stop shaking in the shower. God's Spirit was so strong that I couldn't even stand straight. My heart aches and it was because I could not get more of Him. Right now, I'm not sure what stage of my spiritual life is. I want to become one of the few righteous ones that God sees and uses. God, teach me Your way, show me Your path. In my shower, He asked me, "How much are you willing to sacrifice for me?" Suddenly I realized how much I am afraid to sacrifice for Him. I was going to answer, "Even if I'm persecuted and my legs were to be chopped off, I would still follow You and preach Your Words." But then I thought about how painful that would be, even though I know that no one could take my soul and my spirit for it belongs to God. How does Job have such a big faith in God? I mean, even God allows Satan to persecute him to test his faith. God never gives any tasks to men that men cannot take!

Encourage each others. Edify each others. Most of all, know how to encourage yourself!


During the Prophetic House of Prayer Conference, Shara Pradhan was telling these men and women of God prophetic words from God for each and every one of them. I don't know why, but whenever Shara prophesy over Jesse Engle, my tears would not stop flowing from my eyes. I guess I was just totally in awe of God and how great His plan and works are on Jesse. And the most important thing was, I wanted that anointing and special calling from God too! When Jill was talking and praying for the Asian girl on stage (sorry i forgot her name!), I had a picture in my head that Jill suddenly points at me and asked me to stand up, and then she tells me all these prophetic words about what God wants to say to me. Then out of no where, I just for no reason wanted to get the envelope from my purse, and then along with it, I took my cell phone out as well. Then I saw that I just received a text msg, so I checked it. It says this,

"hi sarah? sorry ^^;; I just wanna tell you something. I'm studying in Starbucks and this thing came into my mind and I had to write this text. I think God is really proud of your passion and doings for His kingdom. Just remember God is with you every second so don't get discouraged by satan. G2g study ttyl - Brian. Sorry I am not an enough leader for house church but I trust in His plan. ^^ "

I couldn't stop weeping reading through this message. It was to a point where I could not, absolutely not, able to read any words. God, I love You!! I can't believe how much Your love is for me. Here I am, thinking that I'm probably not doing well enough for You to use me like how You used Jesse, and wanting to be personally handpicked out by You from this generation. My goodness, God, I am speechless. You just used a brother to write a personal note for me. Wow. I am also very thankful for Brian's obedience for God. If he had not written this text, I wouldn't have gotten this blessing and love from God. Thought he might not see this, but, Brian, I really think because of your humility, faithfulness, and obedience, God has already rise you up as a awesome leader in His kingdom, and use you as a tunnel of blessing for others! :) Bless you Brian!

Your ways are above our ways. God, I am totally in awe of You!

Ps. I listened to Chris Hill's sermon, "No Man" again. Couldn't stop weeping this time... Jesus You go right to where the ugly spots are and there is no problems that You cannot deal with! When we feel like we're alone, we know that with You, we're the majority! Hallelujah to the King!

-Sala<3

Run!

I'm sick. Throat hurts so badly! ><

I'm trying to stay focus and study for my Psychology exam on Friday. However, as you can see here, I failed. The power of being focused and just run towards the goal with all that you've got, is greater than you think. This reminds me of the family trip to Palm Spring this past winter break. We went to a placed called Indian Canyon, and it is a place full of nature fun! I mean, rock climbing, tree climbing, caves discovering and stuffs. I love it! There was this huge rock with one side almost smooth but slanted, and the other side steep like the edge of cliffs. I didn't even think much. I just focused at the top of the rock, saw myself up there already, and ran straight up with full strength and speed. I made it up the first time! YAY! It felt so good. Hahaha~ None of the others could made it with the first try. Not my dad, not alice, not even amy. (Mom didn't bother to try.)

Whatever your goal is, just focus on it and run toward it with full speed. Don't pause! Don't get distracted! And you will get there before you know it! :)

NOW RUN!

Ps. Karen's arms were very soar because she went on her first snowboard trip last weekend! She couldn't raise them up at all over shoulder level. I prayed for her, and after a short while, she could lift her arms up high with no troubles at all! Praise God!! :D

-sala<3

Young Leaders

Friday night, Jack/Annie brought us to share/encourage the young people at our neighbor church. There were 20~30 of them! Most of them are even middle school kids! I'm surprised to see my friends back in AHS at that church, and it is very encouraging see their hunger for God. While we were praying for each of them, I felt that God just loves these kids so much. I mean, most of us (IMPACT people) were having some kind of pain or uncomfortablenesses on our bodies that whole day or the night before. Satan wouldn't attack us if what we're about to do is not important in God's kingdom, right? After the service, James gathered the small group leaders and have us share with them. To be honest, I was extremely nervous throughout Jack's sermon because I didn't really know what exactly I was going to say. Everything that I've planned to share, Jack shared. I was praying to God the whole time, asking His love for the kids to fill me up, and just be able to share/encourage them with love. Then during the sharing time with the leaders, I was able to talk to these kids with no problem. Without fear but with excitement and love! During the ending prayer, I prayed to God to give me a message for this group of young leaders. And He did. I saw a thick bean stalk, just like in the story of "Jack's magic bean stalk". It was formed with think vines intertwined with each others, and it reached straight from the ground and high into the sky. It's a firm and steady bean stalk. I interpreted the vines as each of the leaders, and it is by them uniting with each others, building each others up, encouraging each others, and praying for each others that would build this thick and unshakable strong bean stalk that would reach high into the heavens. By then, together, they could bring down God's presence, Spirit, healing power and all those goodies from above any time! Powerful God. I thank You for Your faithfulness!<3 God let their hearts burn together for You and let the fire never cease, in Your Name, Amen!


I feel sick and yucky. I want to throw up. Tonight was absurd after picking up Alice. I went crazy mad for just small, tiny things. Ex. I couldn't remove my makeup completely from my eyes, even though I washed my face three times! I was totally mad at the face wash and stumping my feet in the restroom. = =||| God please teach me how to let myself die and let You consume more of me! I want more of You and less of me! God take control! Amen

-sala<3

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It has been three days straight since me, karen, and ruth do morning prayer/devotes now. Today after reading 12 chapters of the Words, I challenged them to be still and wait upon the Lord. Try to listen to what He has to say, and soak themselves in His presence of intimacy. After an hour, I asked them how was it. They said they were both falling asleep, which is common for the first timers. I shared with them how I saw a picture when I was listening to His still small voice. I was walking out from the Rivera Library, and there was this group of people standing in a circle and praying for each others. There were people dressed in tuck and there were people dressed in casual college-like clothes. (Whatever that may be) The interesting thing was, after my morning class, when I was walking back to my apartment, I saw a group of people that looked exactly like the one I saw in my vision. I was a bit surprised, yet excited. However, they weren't praying for each others or anything. I guess they were just touring the campus, but I hope that tonight when I come out from the Rivera library, I would see them praying for each others. That would be really great and encouraging! =D Lord work Your miracles and pour out Your goodies in my campus! Amen!

Well, at the end, we didn't get to go to the Rivera Library at night. Instead, we all helped, including David, to cook a delicious 5 dishes dinner. It was awesome! We were worshiping God and fellowshipping with each others. It was good, God was good. Still good! <3

-sala<3

We Will Not Forget

House Church Morning Prayer started this morning. We all woke up at around 7ish. Let's see how long we can keep it going. Get out of our comfort zones and prepare ourselves before the Master comes back, shall we??!!

Last night Brian/Nara shared about Exodus Ch 15 and 17. Both about the Israelites complaining to Moses for the lack of water. In Ch15, they found water but the water were bitter, so the Lord gave Moses a tree to throw into the water, then the water became sweet. Every time I read this part I would imagine what exactly would the "tree" look like. I picture Moses picking up a tree like a superman and throw it into the water with his mighty power. lol. But then I found out later that the "tree" that it talks about here is actually a piece of wood. Ok, that makes more sense. xD Anyway, the people were satisfied with the sweet water. Then jump to Ch 17, where Moses led the Israelites to a place to has absolutely no water. The people started to complain again, this time, more violent to a point where they were about to stone Moses to death if they can't get any water. Once again, the Lord provided them with water by telling Moses to hit the rocks with His staff. Then by faith, water came out from the rocks! Can you imagine this? Water coming out from solid rocks? I bet this is already not a big deal to the Israelites since they've already seen bigger, crazier miracles. Ex. Walking on dry land IN the Red Sea! Anyhow, aren't we sometimes like the Israelites? Been there, seen that of the miraculous things the Lord has done. Then when trouble comes we ask, "Lord, Hello? Are You there? Can You hear me?" Just like in 17:7 the people were testing God by asking, "Is the Lord among us or not?" They even wanted to go back to Egypt. They forgot how God saved them.

Let's not forget about His goodness, His promises.

"Though the world sees and soon forgets,
we will not forget who You are and what You've done for us."

-sala<3