Obey

As I was taking a shower this morning. 5ish. I couldn't stop shaking in the shower. God's Spirit was so strong that I couldn't even stand straight. My heart aches and it was because I could not get more of Him. Right now, I'm not sure what stage of my spiritual life is. I want to become one of the few righteous ones that God sees and uses. God, teach me Your way, show me Your path. In my shower, He asked me, "How much are you willing to sacrifice for me?" Suddenly I realized how much I am afraid to sacrifice for Him. I was going to answer, "Even if I'm persecuted and my legs were to be chopped off, I would still follow You and preach Your Words." But then I thought about how painful that would be, even though I know that no one could take my soul and my spirit for it belongs to God. How does Job have such a big faith in God? I mean, even God allows Satan to persecute him to test his faith. God never gives any tasks to men that men cannot take!

Encourage each others. Edify each others. Most of all, know how to encourage yourself!


During the Prophetic House of Prayer Conference, Shara Pradhan was telling these men and women of God prophetic words from God for each and every one of them. I don't know why, but whenever Shara prophesy over Jesse Engle, my tears would not stop flowing from my eyes. I guess I was just totally in awe of God and how great His plan and works are on Jesse. And the most important thing was, I wanted that anointing and special calling from God too! When Jill was talking and praying for the Asian girl on stage (sorry i forgot her name!), I had a picture in my head that Jill suddenly points at me and asked me to stand up, and then she tells me all these prophetic words about what God wants to say to me. Then out of no where, I just for no reason wanted to get the envelope from my purse, and then along with it, I took my cell phone out as well. Then I saw that I just received a text msg, so I checked it. It says this,

"hi sarah? sorry ^^;; I just wanna tell you something. I'm studying in Starbucks and this thing came into my mind and I had to write this text. I think God is really proud of your passion and doings for His kingdom. Just remember God is with you every second so don't get discouraged by satan. G2g study ttyl - Brian. Sorry I am not an enough leader for house church but I trust in His plan. ^^ "

I couldn't stop weeping reading through this message. It was to a point where I could not, absolutely not, able to read any words. God, I love You!! I can't believe how much Your love is for me. Here I am, thinking that I'm probably not doing well enough for You to use me like how You used Jesse, and wanting to be personally handpicked out by You from this generation. My goodness, God, I am speechless. You just used a brother to write a personal note for me. Wow. I am also very thankful for Brian's obedience for God. If he had not written this text, I wouldn't have gotten this blessing and love from God. Thought he might not see this, but, Brian, I really think because of your humility, faithfulness, and obedience, God has already rise you up as a awesome leader in His kingdom, and use you as a tunnel of blessing for others! :) Bless you Brian!

Your ways are above our ways. God, I am totally in awe of You!

Ps. I listened to Chris Hill's sermon, "No Man" again. Couldn't stop weeping this time... Jesus You go right to where the ugly spots are and there is no problems that You cannot deal with! When we feel like we're alone, we know that with You, we're the majority! Hallelujah to the King!

-Sala<3